diddly dee

i'm quite happy with the sales ive been getting for the vs stuff!!

yippee!! hahahas.

oh i think i wanna get a desktop..

i mean it'll be easier for me to use at home and plus

compaq is having one now going really cheap..

lately i've been having the urge to get an anklet!

i guess i'm missing the one i used to have from perlini..

i tried finding for that one but they didnt have it..

ergh this is why i hate losing something..

yes i've definitely been bitten by the knitting bug

and i love it so much... hahahahahas i even created a page

on ravelry to upload all my projects. how awesome is that

so aunty aruna took me out to buy stuff for me to start on a new project

and i fell in love with this particular yarn..

the colours are just so pretty!!!! so i couldnt wait to start

on making a stole..

i started with 40 stitches and aunty aruna created a pattern for me

i managed to do abit with her and then i went home to do the rest

i was so engrossed in doing it i ended up with 60 stitches!!

i made so many mistakes and it didnt show!! so now i have to wait

till i go back to aunty arunas house so i can get it back to 40. brrrr

i guess the addiction is not in the knitting itself but to see what

comes out of your hard work..

the only reason i couldnt stop was to finish it and see how my stole turned out

this is the first thing i knitted totally on my own! a blue headband.

i made a red one too and wore it but it stretched and now its a lil loose...
yay i bought this lipgloss i think in bubblegum!! and i wanna get some more

heheheheh!!!

FELIZ DOS MES BEBE!!!

its our 2 months anni.. and its kinda weird.. 2 months only..

feels like its been years.. hahas.

i miss you so much!!! you look so tired in the pic.. yes i know u are tired haha

you know i love the fact that you said to me

"i know it isnt my fault but i feel like i'm not spending enough time with you. I'm sorry"

seriously its damn nice to hear you say that... hahaha ok i'm smiling away..

anyways i'm off to go meet the boyfriend coz he gets to book out today!!

yayness!!!

happy happy happy

yay yay i've been pretty good at watching what i'm eating

and exercising much more regularly...

i wanna start on the cayenne diet but i hate it

and plus i know i get tempted to eat..

so its gonna be damn hard but i shall try... but need to buy lemons

hahahah!!!

ohhh i started blogshoppin again and created a new page

doing a pre order for these Guess slippes/wedges

and i had so many orders!!!

but many of them were'nt to keen on paying first and then waiting

but either ways i still had orders and i am more motivated to keep trying

and building it up =)

i got myself the chocolate ones. hahahas maybe i shall get the other

colours next.. yippeeeeee :P

i kinda think the red one is nice too... hmmmmm

oh oh oh i bought these two victoria secret pouches too and i found a couple others

which i am so gonna get soooooon! hehe

this is from the love rocks collection i think..

last week aunty aruna asked me if i wanted to come over

and learn knitting and i thought it would be kinda cool..

i mean i was always fascinated by knitting but never learnt it..

so i went over and she showed me her entire collection of yarn!

my gosh her drawers were spilling with yarn

but i fell in love with the variegated colours..

they are simply gorgeous!!!

she knitted this bolero with blue colours and i loved it so she gave it to me

it's a little loose but somehow i know i shall definitely wear it

coz i just love the colours...

she was also knitting this shawl with sweet rose colours

and i got damn inspired and thats the project i wanna do next.

there is something about knitting that aunty aruna told me

and its damn true..

"while you're knitting, all life's troubles dont seem so big anymore"

for that little moment you forget everything and just concentrate on the

stitching and somehow its kinda therapeutic..

i've knitted a wristband and a headband and couldnt stop so i did another

headband and gonna try and finish it today so tomoro i can start on the shawl..
this bag is the love! like seriously...

baby bought this for me and its not so much that i love the bag

but the memory of how he actually got it for me..

my gosh he was super cute!!!

we once went window shopping and i guess he wanted to know

the kinds of stuff i liked..

we walked into charles and keith and he asked me which bag i liked

i remember asking him to guess and he picked this one

which was the exact one i liked. duh its leopard print. haha!

weeks later every C&K we went into didnt have it. i think

and finally the other day we went out and he just badly wanted to get that for me

we travelled from one C&K to another just to search for it

and finally got it

i swear i wont forget the smile on his face. it was so awesome!!!

and yes i was damn happy that he actually bought it for me

but seeing him die die try to find it was way more exciting..

i love you so much!
my very own GI Joe. =)

hahas you never failed my love.

i miss you :D

new start

baby's gone to NS and it seriously sucks..

hahas luckily he had to report at pasir ris

so it was easy for me to go and see him off...

i miss him :(

especially at night coz we always talk till either of us gets sleepy

hahaha sometimes we'd just talk even though we are sleepy

anyways its time i did stuff in my life

and stopped rotting at home..

found out about NIE and stuff and that if i get through i'll only start in January..

so till then i guess i'll go work... brr...

gotta start calling up schools on monday

so i can start when the new school term starts for relief teaching..

I also cant wait to start on Rosette.. I mean i'm extremely tempted to

shop online and i've already ordered VS stuff. hehehehe

so i shall start adding people up and totally get rid of Sk...

yay i'm finally doing things.. hahahahah =)

IYAZ-SOLO

I said I don't want to walk this earth if I gotta do it solo.

See girl we used to be a team
Runnin the streets (yeah)
We was living out our dream (ohh)
You used to be my rider
I was your provider
Now we separated in two
Oh we was burning up the block(yeah)
And everybody know when we step in the spot(ohh)
See, we was like the dynamic duo
Id never thought that you'd go, but you did uh, yeah you did


Oh baby you left and sailed away alone (Yeah, alone)
And now you got me trapped up on this island
Where nowhere to get home

And I don't wanna go, go
I don't wanna go, go
I don't wanna it no, no
I don't wanna it no, no
I don't want to walk this earth
If I gotta do it solo (solo)

Cuz I was so high
And now im so low
And I don't wanna walk around alone, solo
Said I don't want to walk this earth
If I gotta do it solo (solo, solo)

You was the beat on to my top line,
Put us together
And you'd have to hit rewind
See, you give me a purpose
Now I'm getting nervous
That my heart will never sing again
Oh, when we was runnin up the airways,
They knew us from the Virgin Islands to the U.K.
See, we was on the way to the platinum and gold
Never thought that you'd go but you did ya, ya you did.

Replay

please stop playing

please stop playing

please stop playing

please stop playing

please stop playing

please

no i am not OK!!!!

Turn over

Okies my blog starting to feel quite depressing hahahas..
I'm jus mad and thinking too much.. The result of rotting at home..

I'm wide awake and boyfriend is super sleepy but trying to stay up
till I get sleepy.. He's damn cute la.. Hahaha.. He saw the calender
n realized he only had 4 days left n got sad but he said the sweetest things
and I just kept smiling away.. Hahas

But 4 days is too fast!! NS sucks.. Can't bring charger also..
Ermphs.. Since we got together we've spent almost everyday together
and when we don't meet we're chatting online and on the phone too and texting..

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh he kept counting down till his day to go camp.. Now my turn till
he gets to come out!!! Haha okies now I'm getting sleeping..

But I'm tempted to poke him on fb.. He can't sleep peacefully unless he pokes me.. Cute right hahaha...
K I shan't be so bad.. I've to wake up in 3 hours time for kids church outing...
Gooooood night.....

Incomplete

"you complete me"

its a lie.

when u say it just like that...

how do u tell someone they complete you

when you dont know complete.

how will you know when you are truly complete and contended

when you have not lived fully?

only those in their last moments

would know what truly completed them

because they have lived.

though some lives are cut short

due to sad circumstances

they still lived and knows what completed them till their last moment

the people they love

the friends they made

the sentiments they have

the memories etched in their minds

the feelings they hold on to

till their last breath..

those complete them..

that defines them..

now in life

people come into our lives

and make us feel like we need nothing else..

thats how i feel my love

and i i feel like nothing else matters

and i look foward to living life with you

and knowing at the end of it

you'll be the one that completes me

bipolar

i'm starting to feel it.. like i wanna scream so bad

and just let it out.. but yeah i dont know

i mean i was out today and had a great time but im sorry

i kept thinking and i was so close to just standing and crying..

even on the way out of the house i was crying and walking..

ermph... luckily for shades eh..

we went passed changi beach and it was just alot

and i saw this bench and i so badly wanted to just go sit there any cry...

just cry so my head would stop hurting..

but its never gonna stop right..

:(

:(

Okies I can't sleep but baby is sleepy.. I don't know wat else to do other than blog from my phone.. I don't know how to explain wats running through my head.. there are so many things and I feel as if I'm going crazy just thinking about the things that I'm thinking about. See now even that sounds crazy as it is..

It's like I'm upset at wat he said but that's how he thinks of it and then I remember why it affects me and then I remember something else and I'm not upset but I just want him to hug me.. See crazy right.. Yeah ok I'm answerring myself.. I just don't think it's right but then either way I'm not gonna react that way..

I'm craving for cookies and milk now and just sitting at the balcony.. I never knew it was this peaceful.. And the breeze is just nice.. Feels like i can breathe without that weight on my heart.. And just stop thinking..

Now that stupid Tatu song is stuck in my head.. And it's not just things said but everything.. Ergh I hate this feeling.. I hate the fact that I'm so used to being honest and saying everything out to him and now it sucks when I don't say it out.. I used to be good at it..

Love starts to change you not your being and who you are but the feelings and reactions you thought you would never express.. Who knew that I could get jealous over the slightest of things and feel so much... Ok I had another point but I remembered the jealousy part and forgot my point..

Anyways it's our one month today and you know wats amazing is that he wished my first at the strike of 12... How sweet is that?? I mean everywhere girls complain abt guys forgetting anniversaries and all but here my bf actually remembered on the dot of it.. I find that super adorable.. :) happy 1st month baby :):)

even though it's just one month we've had years behind us a rollervoaster full of memories and this one month being your girlfriend has been super amazing :):) I hope it only gets better. Now and forever baby :)

Round

hmmmmm this weight thing is really starting to annoy me..

i'm getting obsessed with it and reminded of it everyday

oh well atleast obsess about this then think about something else right..

its harder now actually..

before you just try to think about something else

and then u distract yourself..

but now its harder to stop thinking..

its harder to distract..

its just playing...

try having a horror movie replaying in your head 24/7..

thats how much i keep seeing it

the only upside is nowadays i dont wake up thinking

i just check my phone and start from there...

i tried writing it out but i stop before i can even finish the first sentence

ergh..

anyways.. i suddenly had the urge to clean my room

and i acheived it.. ok well i only cleaned 1/3..

hahas i love seeing my nail polish collection all stacked up..

hahas.

goodbye

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't

supposed to ever let you down probably will.

You will have your heart broken probably more than once and

it's harder every time.You'll break hearts tooo, so remember how

it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best

friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did.

You'll cry because time is passing too fast,

and you'll eventually lose someone you love.

So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've

never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset

is a minute of happiness you'll never get back. -Dirissy

a painful goodbye is when you can never say hello again...

i'm sorry i cant anymore....

gone by..

my gosh been meeting baby all the time heheheh =)

and at the same time he is gonna go into army soon and then

its gonna suck ergh..

and i have a whole list of things to do to occupy my time i guess..

1. LOSE FREAKIN weight... hhahahaha too happy im eating too much..

2. CLEAN MY DAMN ROOM!!! like finally have to do it!!

3. Plan my bdae...

4. Start on my freakin license...

5.hmmm i know there is some more but i cant remember now..

6. oh yeah finish my cross-stitch!!! hahahahaha

anyways ive enjoyed every moment spent with baby ;) hahas

i know i've always got you behind me if i fall :P

fun icing times =)

with bro and baby.. tall phats!!! hahahaha

hahahahas anyways after so long i spoke to lishi!!! i mean kervonne

and its so nice talking to her..

and yes before i forget i', supposed to say she is the cutest person on earth! hahahaha

okok gtg. hahahahahaahah

:(

ergh fine ok its time to lose weight..

im already feeling lousy as it is..

:(:(

Wine

=) yesyes i had an awesome morning coz my love sent me an amazingly sweet message. hahahahas. and i love him so much :P

our day of many firsts.. the day that started it all.. hahas.

april 24th..

the first pic we took since being together and its the best =)

and our first sunset at the beach.. hahas

haha

now i feel like finding for all our old pics hahahas.

dearest i love you =)

i swear i really cant take it..

its too much for me already and now i have even more going on..

how much more can i take?

how much more doi have to go through?

how much more can i blame myself????

i just wanna let it out and then go swimming

i just wanna do something..

i dont know...

argh....

its hard continuosly trying to stop yourself from crying

its hard to not think about it whenever you see smth

it was worse today when i actually called you

and realized you were never going to answer you phone again...

7 days

having you by my side made me forget it...

you made me smile and laugh..

and for that i am grateful for all you have done my love..

it hit me today when i was alone for a while..

its been a week..

a week has just gone by like that

.....

Loss

ok i tried this post 3 times today and failed miserably..

i guess im not supposed to blog todayy abt it..

bomb

please take the pain away

White Rose

april 24

♥

bleahhhh yay!

=)

just dandy daffodilious happy :) hahahahas

you are the reason.

you made it happen.

i cooked today amazingly..

i attempted to make chicken kurma.. hahas effin hard!

but i made it and it tasted like japanese chicken curry haha!!!

"i know something went wrong somewhere but its nice"

=)

im suddenly in a cooking mood and spent the whole day making things to eat

now me and bro have creme caramel in the fridge which we made hahaha

and ive already finished half the tub of ben and jerrys smores ice cream. heheh

very tempted to go finish it

love love =)

okok too much food in one day.. very very bad. but whatever it was

an awesome day :P

I Cant say GO

taio cruz

UH OH, UH OH, UH OH, UH OH, UH OH)
Sometimes when we fight, I think maybe I
Should just let you leave and push you out of my life
But I don't decide, cause I know that I
Just can't survive without you
And I know inside I never let you go cause I'm sure your the one
Even through the rain it's clear, your the one I want
And no matter how we fuss and fight girl, you should always know
I just can't stop loving you

[CHORUS:]
That's why I can't say go (that's why I can't say go)
Why I can't say go (that's why I can't say go)
Why I can't say go (that's why I can't say go)
Why I can't say go (that's why I can't say go)
That's why I can't say go
(UH OH, UH OH)
I said that's why I can't say go
(UH OH, UH OH, UH OH)
Baby I've tried, to tell you goodbye
One look from your eyes and those dum toughts say goodbye
It's foolish to try, when I know that I
I just can't survive without you
And I know inside I never let you go cause I'm sure your the one
Even through the rain it's clear that your the one I want
And no matter how we fuss and fight, girl you should always know
I just can't stop loving you

[CHORUS:]
That's why I can't say go (that's why I can't say go)
Why I can't say go (that's why I can't say go)
Why I can't say go (that's why I can't say go)
Why I can't say go (that's why I can't say go)
That's why I can't say go (UH OH)
To see through the night, you are my light
So even when we fight I know it's going to be alright
You have my soul, I'm just letting you know

[CHORUS:]
That's why I can't say go (that's why I can't say go)
Why I can't say go (that's why I can't say go)
Why I can't say go (that's why I can't say go)
Why I can't say go (that's why I can't say go)
That's why I can't say go
I said that's why I can't say go

on a dark dark day i chose this..

i thought i was fine with it but apparently im not..

i hate it.. thinking about it depresses me... and i kept eating the whole

time to stop thinking about it...

ohhhh i dont know why but since yesterday ive been associating flowers

with my moods.. i was feeling awesome yesterday and i wanted sunflowers..

hahahahah!!! i know im crazy whatever..

omg i literally depressed myself over another issue today..

i was desperately trying to find something and moved my clothes

from this cupboard i have and found photo albums!!!

my gosh looking through them is making me hate myself so bad!!!

:(:( and yes i deal with it by eating

and then i shall go starve myself... :(:(

im starting to feel the weight of making decisions..

i seriously need to start applying for schools and im only gonna start in july..

dont feel like starting so soon...

i guess i should get a job.. but i dont wanna work..

hahahahahahs.

vaishna got us jobs for today and tomoro

and even mummy was like no you're not working..

puffster and vaishna found it pleasing to see my in a working state

and puffster just wanted to see me in uniform with bunned hair..

ermph.. i didnt go though :P hahahas

ok i literally have nothing to watch..

gossip girl, 90210, greys anatomy, private practice, cougar town

and many more all have NO new episodes!!

thats sucky!!!

and true blood is only coming out in JUNE!!!!! :(

why why why!!!

ARGH!!!